Grow Through It.

Self-injurious behavior. This hand of “SIB” that has been dealt is not for the faint of heart. Most days it can bring the strongest to their knees. Watching your child who has a heart of gold & whose giggles could burst your heart, hurt their self is the lowest point of numb. How can I

It’s Okay to not be Okay.

It’s okay, to not be okay. I want you to close your eyes after reading this sentence and sit and ponder on it for a moment. What if your child you dreamed of in your belly came out, learned everything that they should and then one day stopped and went back to a baby cognitively?

Back Then.

When we met as early teenagers, it was wrong place, wrong time. Back then, I didn’t tell you that your smile made my heart melt. You smelled so sweet in the early morning class. Your hair was still slightly damp from your morning shower. I could have loved you back then. I wanted to actually.

Your Smile.

There has been a few things in my life that has truly taken my breath away. The day I kissed my husband and committed my life to him as his wife, that took my breath. The night I found out I was going to be a mommy for the first time. The world stopped spinning

God Will.

I’m sure you’ve heard the phrase, “God will only give you what you can handle”. I have always heard it over the years and the typical stress of everyday life, people would say it to me. I’m sure you have also heard the phrase, “God gives special kids to special parents”. That one is thrown

The Blue Bucket.

I have come to realize that there is a controversy over whether to use a blue Halloween pumpkin bucket for Trick-or-Treating. I always assumed that when someone saw a blue bucket, it would help that neighbor understand that the child was Autistic and may have a speech impairment. There are some parents who get really

Inclusion.

Inclusion. What does that look like? I have a hard time with the thought that my children are looked at differently because they are disabled. I know it’s normal instinct to look at a child with special needs and immediately think, “Awe, poor thing.” But it still hurts my heart. Strangers do it when they

Why?

I catch myself staring at my son and drifting off to another place. In this place I think of what your voice would sound like. I think of how it would sound if you could call me momma. Over these past few years I’ve realized time has stood still. We have progressed into an older

What I’ve Learned

Dear Special Needs Parent, In the last few years I’ve learned a few things being a momma to 2 special needs boys. I look back into my early twenties and see a care free girl who was in college and had a different perspective on life. Bringing a child into the world automatically changes your

Grief

Why do we grieve as special needs parents? I’ve tossed the term around numerous times about grief. You’re probably thinking, but her children are alive why would she be grieving? Hear me out. When you find out you are pregnant you start to imagine what your child’s future will look like. What your own future